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Yep!

I want to go home so badly I dream about it even during the day... but I want him and Zack so much more. I'd be yanking my own heart out if I even thought of leaving 'em behind. I don't have the stars anymore, but they're my constellations now.

Love makes you fucking stupid, is what I'm saying.

Me either. I want to put anyone else in charge. Or hell, rebuild the whole structure of the government. Even with the sex, there are some things that could be done so much better, don't you think? We can fuck like bunnies without the threats and cruelty.

If he took the city's side, would you? Could you love him even if he was that selfish?

I... I told Zexion I was going to cut my heart out and shove it down his throat...

[ He hiccups a couple of times, caught between sobbing and laughing. ]

Love... love makes you really stupid. I don't mind staying here, I... I was already making plans for the future here, studying to help him with the business someday when I get a little older and he thinks I'm ready and... I wasn't... in any hurry to leave.

But I don't think people should be dragged off without even knowing why. That's... that's not right. We don't even have a real understanding of what they take people away for, so it could happen anytime, and they do random things to us without even any mercy for those of us playing along...

[ He doesn't answer that last question. It's not that he doesn't hear it, he just doesn't have an answer yet. ]

Dude... you fit right in with them!

[Aisha is actually giving you a round of applause, you fucked up individual. That's about how screwed up you have to be to even stand a chance keeping your head even in this city, and now she's convinced even more he'll be fine.]

Keep making those plans. That doesn't have to change. If there's going to be something ugly from all this, someone's gonna have to start it. Not sure who has the balls for that.

Besides me, but I've got business to attend to first. Literally.

Yeah. If they were more transparent, I wouldn't even be so angry with them. Aisha doesn't even know why they brought us here in the first place.

[She gets it. It wasn't an easy question.]

I... I fit right in?

[ He has to blink stupidly at that, because well, that's just silly. He's not like them at all, is he? Or has he... maybe they have changed him after all. That idea should probably upset him, but it doesn't, not now.

He sighs, and there's a pause, some sounds of movement... and then a splash. ]

I guess I would still be a little, because there are so many kids here my age or younger who have been pretty screwed up by this, who had normal lives before, you know? I don't want to make it sound like we're special or deserve more, but it is... hard. To go from being safe to constantly being unsafe. It's not an improvement for us, that way.

But I do think that we could come to a compromise, if they'd set up a justice system where people at least knew what was happening and why. And... if they didn't lie to us and say we went home when we didn't, that too.

You told a guy you were going to feed him your heart. Welcome to the club, I will actually bake you cookies.

[Her ears twitch. That's curious, but she doesn't feel the need to ask yet. Too distracted by other things.]

A normal life... I've never had one. Never wanted it though, I've been military since I was a kid. This place is actually safer than home in ways, just not any way I would actually prefer. At least you know what you get when people just want you dead.

I bet it is hard, though.

Maybe. Maybe I could live with that. I think some of us should be at least a part of their government, for transparency's sake. We're citizens, we need a chance to have our voices heard. Not flat-out lying, not sending us in for ed-education nearly at a whim, is all a part of that for me.

And if they refuse it, that's when I'll be ready to go to war.

[ Sniffle. Splash. Sniffle. ]

That's... I'm scared of that too. I don't have any powers, and I'm not a fighter or anything. I don't have any training for this stuff. If there's a war, I'm not sure how it will go for me. I want to try other methods first... but... but I do think it might be necessary.

Ah, to be honest... to be honest I think I expected Genesis to protect me, I mean not just in that specific instance, but if I were ever in danger and he could. I guess that might have been a little much to...

[ There's a lot of splashing, as if he sat up suddenly. ]

Wait, you bake cookies?

I'd offer to train you, but if you're going in blind I'd probably end up killing you on accident. Aisha isn't very gen-

I got it. If you ever want someone to teach you basics, go to Masamune and ask for Zack. Tell him you need help, and that Aisha said it'd do him some good too. Even if nothing bad happens, everyone should be able to protect themselves. That being said...

Aisha thinks Genesis would protect you the best he could. He's pretty great when he's not being all diva-ish and misguidedly making bad desicions.

[Ai r u swimming?]

I'm opening a bakery! Aisha bakes lotsa good stuff. It's my hobby, I think.

I like to bake too, and I'll look up... Zack. I'll remember. Do you... think it's safe for me to go to Masamune though? After that?

[ He doesn't know Sephiroth well enough to know whether it's okay to go to his business now that they've argued, but the way Sephiroth looked at him... he wonders. ]

And you know I don't think Genesis is diva-ish or anything like that at all, he's just... he's just... uhhh, well, okay maybe he is, but I do think he's pretty great too, and he's respected my right to make choices for myself more than anyone else, even people from home.

Pretty sure Genesis at least has the sense to lay down the law on picking at you. If not, tell Sephiroth I said to lay off.

[Ex-employee or not, Aisha gets what she wants as the queen of his house and heart, even if he wants to marry someone that doesn't care enough in the slightest.

It would be foolish to cross her on this one, as much anger lived in her now.]

He's totally cool despite it. Besides, diva antics are way fun to tease. And it's good that he respects you. On that note, if that whole show with my fussy bird made you feel disrespected, call him on it. No one should have to see that sort of thing with no heads up.

I think Zexion is likely to do enough yelling for both of us, but I'll try to make it clear that I'm unhappy.

[ He runs his hand through the water in front of him a little, watching it move and thinking.]

I'll be sure to say you said so, if Sephiroth bothers me. It's possible he'd just forget about me anyway, but that look in his eyes... I'm not used to being that scared. My world isn't like this at all.

I feel so ill-equipped to deal with so many things here, you know? And maybe I'm being too idealistic. But I don't want to be dragged off for absolutely no reason and have my whole brain screwed out of me, like my friend from home was, until she didn't even resemble herself anymore.

That's good. Don't make Zexion make all the frowny faces. Dude, I bet he's super harsh when he's mad, I'd totally hate to be Genesis right now.

[Makes her shudder just thinking about it.]

You should be terrified of him. But if you don't look too interesting, he'll leave ya be. He has a type of person he particularly likes as prey, and you're close but not quite it.

I went to re-ed once. It really, seriously fucks you up. Sephiroth just left it a few days ago, so this might not even completely be him talking at all. Which is actually kind of terrifying. But keep that idealism, you don't want to not have any hope.

The other side of that is ugly.

No, I don't envy Genesis that fallout. As much as I love Zexion, he is... I can imagine him being very formidable.

[ He doesn't even realize what's he's said there. Despite the fact that talking is helping, he is still very upset, and he's not thinking over all his words before they come out. He's just talking, and trying to learn as much as he can, and trying to understand things from all sides. ]

I think I'll have to... take your word on Sephiroth. But I don't intend to do anything to make myself more interesting to him, and if being as close to Genesis as I am isn't enough to do it, I don't think it'd be possible. I really can't imagine having anything someone like him would want or need, and I know from experience that if someone hurts me, there's not much I can do about it. So I don't think I'd make interesting prey.

As for hope, I don't think my heart would allow me to give that up.

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